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Oct. 3rd, 2007 | 01:05 am
Mmk well.
I know that in a lot of my blogs I talk about how I have a crush, and a lot of them are different every time...
But now I think I have an ACTUAL crush who I am crushing for hardcore style.
And plusss, this person also likes meee back methinks!
WEEEEEEEE
Tis all very exciting.
Ok enough about Liam, let's talk about myself.
I have dropped out of school. I know, I know it seems silly to drop out in year 10. But I don't care. I chose to act upon my hatred of school. Twas my choice, bitch.
I haven't COMPLETELY given up though. I will be doing my year 10 at CIT next year, then I'll be doing other courses to prepare myself for teh future at CIT ^_^
Liam is great.
I am working full time at McDonalds now. I know, I know.. dropping out of year 10 and working at McDonalds seems RETARDED, but it is only until I can find a better job. Which will be easy, but I haven't started looking yet so w/e shut up..
Liam is cool.
I am cutting down on my Ganja smoking quite a lot. I've only done it twice in one week I think. I'm not sure though I can't remember.. It may have been 3 times in the last 4 days.. Hmm.
Liam is pretty.
I think I might buy some musical recording equipment very soon. Very very soon. Like, next couple of weeks. I will start raking in the cash I think =D And I now have no spare time to spend all my money! WOOH!
Liam is cute.
My mum is going to start charging me rent though.. I don't see why. She says it is because if I am not going to school then she doesn't want me living with her and doing nothing.. but I won't be doing nothing. I will be working my ass off full time! And I pretty much HAVE to stay with her, because I am only 15. It would be a little hard for me to move out on my own at this age.. Basically, if I left home, I'd be straight to a refuge. It's not like I can fucking go rent someone elses house at 15 years of age -_-
So in short, she is unnecessarily charging me for being alive under her roof. Bleh.
I think I might refuse to pay her. Then if she kicks me out because of it, I'll live on the street for a couple of days and I'll make her aware of this and she will feel horrible for kicking out her FIFTEEN YEAR OLD SON because he didn't think he was old enough to have to pay rent.
Liam is awesome.
Trip-Hop music is pretty amazing.
As is shoegaze music.
As is Liam.
Liam Liam Liam.
Liam
Night.
Brad
<3
I know that in a lot of my blogs I talk about how I have a crush, and a lot of them are different every time...
But now I think I have an ACTUAL crush who I am crushing for hardcore style.
And plusss, this person also likes meee back methinks!
WEEEEEEEE
Tis all very exciting.
Ok enough about Liam, let's talk about myself.
I have dropped out of school. I know, I know it seems silly to drop out in year 10. But I don't care. I chose to act upon my hatred of school. Twas my choice, bitch.
I haven't COMPLETELY given up though. I will be doing my year 10 at CIT next year, then I'll be doing other courses to prepare myself for teh future at CIT ^_^
Liam is great.
I am working full time at McDonalds now. I know, I know.. dropping out of year 10 and working at McDonalds seems RETARDED, but it is only until I can find a better job. Which will be easy, but I haven't started looking yet so w/e shut up..
Liam is cool.
I am cutting down on my Ganja smoking quite a lot. I've only done it twice in one week I think. I'm not sure though I can't remember.. It may have been 3 times in the last 4 days.. Hmm.
Liam is pretty.
I think I might buy some musical recording equipment very soon. Very very soon. Like, next couple of weeks. I will start raking in the cash I think =D And I now have no spare time to spend all my money! WOOH!
Liam is cute.
My mum is going to start charging me rent though.. I don't see why. She says it is because if I am not going to school then she doesn't want me living with her and doing nothing.. but I won't be doing nothing. I will be working my ass off full time! And I pretty much HAVE to stay with her, because I am only 15. It would be a little hard for me to move out on my own at this age.. Basically, if I left home, I'd be straight to a refuge. It's not like I can fucking go rent someone elses house at 15 years of age -_-
So in short, she is unnecessarily charging me for being alive under her roof. Bleh.
I think I might refuse to pay her. Then if she kicks me out because of it, I'll live on the street for a couple of days and I'll make her aware of this and she will feel horrible for kicking out her FIFTEEN YEAR OLD SON because he didn't think he was old enough to have to pay rent.
Liam is awesome.
Trip-Hop music is pretty amazing.
As is shoegaze music.
As is Liam.
Liam Liam Liam.
Liam
Night.
Brad
<3
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Oh my
Sep. 17th, 2007 | 12:21 am
mood: accomplished
Oh how I have missed you, sweet sweet Livejournal.
I have so much to say!
And so little energy.
I'll do the best I can!
Now, should I start from the last time I Ljayed and work my way up to the present, or the other way round?
I don't really care, so I'll mix it up a bit.
Ok. I'll do it like this. I willll, make categories of main aspects of thingys and just talk about all the changies and shizwiznix.
Music
Since I last journaled, I have done very very very much musically!
I've taken up piano, and love it to death.
I'm doing a class at school calleddd "Music Industry Basics" which is all about the recording and producing side of music and it is the PERFECT class for me! It is wonderful so far. Wee.
I have been to.. 3 concerts, I think.. Since I last journalized that is.
I just got back from Tori Amos, which was very good. But she didn't talk to the audience much at all which was disappointing.
I recently saw Silverchair and Powderfinger.
Silverchair were AMAZING. Powderfinger were... Powderfinger.
And my very favorite = Patrick Wolf!!!
Naturally, he was FUCKING AMAZING IN EVERY WAY!!! Actually, I thought I had already journalled about him.. But I guess now =\
He talked to me whilst he was on stage, and I was hyperventalating and couldn't breath and it was fantastic. By far the best day of my life.
Here is Tori's set list for tonight, roughly:
Clyde
Bouncing Off Clouds
Little Earthquakes
Juarez
Rattlesnakes
Beauty Of Speed
Interval - Professional Widow (Cool Remix Thing)
Tori
Big Wheel
Space Dog (Intro thing that I have not heard before, then the song)
Pancake
Cornflake Girl
Lust (I think..)
Take To The Sky (Russia)
Solo Tori (T & Bö)
China
Me & A Gun
Here In My Head
Band Returns
Digital Ghost
Black Dove (January)
Code Red
Encore 1
Precious Things
Secret Spell
Encore 2
Hey Jupiter
School
Hmm.. School..
I started to get back on track at the start of this term and was doing quite well.
But it didn't last long.. I'm pretty sure that I am officially failing. I don't know though. I also don't really care.
Loveee
Well. I currently have a crush on a person. They are very lovely and pretty and wonderful and *swoooon*
That's all I need to say I think.
General
I'm sick of the category thing -_-
Ok.
I just forgot everything I had planned to journal about...
Oh fuck it. If I remember anything I'll post again.
Bai
I have so much to say!
And so little energy.
I'll do the best I can!
Now, should I start from the last time I Ljayed and work my way up to the present, or the other way round?
I don't really care, so I'll mix it up a bit.
Ok. I'll do it like this. I willll, make categories of main aspects of thingys and just talk about all the changies and shizwiznix.
Music
Since I last journaled, I have done very very very much musically!
I've taken up piano, and love it to death.
I'm doing a class at school calleddd "Music Industry Basics" which is all about the recording and producing side of music and it is the PERFECT class for me! It is wonderful so far. Wee.
I have been to.. 3 concerts, I think.. Since I last journalized that is.
I just got back from Tori Amos, which was very good. But she didn't talk to the audience much at all which was disappointing.
I recently saw Silverchair and Powderfinger.
Silverchair were AMAZING. Powderfinger were... Powderfinger.
And my very favorite = Patrick Wolf!!!
Naturally, he was FUCKING AMAZING IN EVERY WAY!!! Actually, I thought I had already journalled about him.. But I guess now =\
He talked to me whilst he was on stage, and I was hyperventalating and couldn't breath and it was fantastic. By far the best day of my life.
Here is Tori's set list for tonight, roughly:
Clyde
Bouncing Off Clouds
Little Earthquakes
Juarez
Rattlesnakes
Beauty Of Speed
Interval - Professional Widow (Cool Remix Thing)
Tori
Big Wheel
Space Dog (Intro thing that I have not heard before, then the song)
Pancake
Cornflake Girl
Lust (I think..)
Take To The Sky (Russia)
Solo Tori (T & Bö)
China
Me & A Gun
Here In My Head
Band Returns
Digital Ghost
Black Dove (January)
Code Red
Encore 1
Precious Things
Secret Spell
Encore 2
Hey Jupiter
School
Hmm.. School..
I started to get back on track at the start of this term and was doing quite well.
But it didn't last long.. I'm pretty sure that I am officially failing. I don't know though. I also don't really care.
Loveee
Well. I currently have a crush on a person. They are very lovely and pretty and wonderful and *swoooon*
That's all I need to say I think.
General
I'm sick of the category thing -_-
Ok.
I just forgot everything I had planned to journal about...
Oh fuck it. If I remember anything I'll post again.
Bai
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giknrebion
Jun. 21st, 2007 | 10:32 pm
Hmmm.
I gots me a ticket to TORI AMOSSS =D
I am quite excited.
Chai Latte thingys are fucking delicious.
I like them a lot.
Bit Bent was very nice tonight, I went to dinner afterwards with everyone.
It was nice, I had some vegetarian Lasagna.
Yeah.
Not much else to say I don't think..
OH WAIT
I'm moving house THIS WEEKEND =DDD
We got the keys tonight, and we moved a few things over.
It is actually my old house, but we are moving back into it because it was cool.
Yeah.
That is exciting.
Woot.
Night.
Brad.
<3
I gots me a ticket to TORI AMOSSS =D
I am quite excited.
Chai Latte thingys are fucking delicious.
I like them a lot.
Bit Bent was very nice tonight, I went to dinner afterwards with everyone.
It was nice, I had some vegetarian Lasagna.
Yeah.
Not much else to say I don't think..
OH WAIT
I'm moving house THIS WEEKEND =DDD
We got the keys tonight, and we moved a few things over.
It is actually my old house, but we are moving back into it because it was cool.
Yeah.
That is exciting.
Woot.
Night.
Brad.
<3
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Agh
Jun. 18th, 2007 | 07:11 pm
mood: 
discontent
music: Yann Tiersen
Argument with mother tonight.
Lot's of fun.
Then sxc breakdown with crying on my bed and all.
I don't like whining though. So I won't get into heaps of detail about what I'm feeling right now, because it would just come out as emotional whingey dribble that I personally wouldn't want to hear if I was someone else, so I won't make anyone have to listen to it.
Hmm
Now that I've decided not to whine about my emotions I have nothing to say right now.. I'll leave it for later I guess.
Lot's of fun.
Then sxc breakdown with crying on my bed and all.
I don't like whining though. So I won't get into heaps of detail about what I'm feeling right now, because it would just come out as emotional whingey dribble that I personally wouldn't want to hear if I was someone else, so I won't make anyone have to listen to it.
Hmm
Now that I've decided not to whine about my emotions I have nothing to say right now.. I'll leave it for later I guess.
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New love
Jun. 15th, 2007 | 09:13 pm
I have discovered a new love.
Poetry.
Not just any poetry.
I dug up an old poetry book by Shel Silverstein and have been reading it lots. It is mostly humorous children's poetry, but there is a fair few very sweet lovely deep ones also.
I will post a few of my favorites so READ THEM!
Poetry.
Not just any poetry.
I dug up an old poetry book by Shel Silverstein and have been reading it lots. It is mostly humorous children's poetry, but there is a fair few very sweet lovely deep ones also.
I will post a few of my favorites so READ THEM!
Snowman
Twas the first day of the springtime,
And the snowman stood alone
As the winter snows were melting,
And the pine trees seemed to groan,
"Ah, you poor sad smiling snowman,
You'll be melting by and by."
Said the snowman, "What a pity,
For I'd like to see July.
Yes, I'd like to see July, and please don't ask me why.
But I'd like to, yes I'd like to, oh I'd like to see July."
Chirped a robin, just arriving,
"Seasons come and seasons go,
And the greatest ice must crumble
When it's flowers' time to grow.
And as one thing is beginning
So another thing must die,
And there's never been a snowman
Who has ever seen July.
No, they never see July, no matter how they try.
No, they never ever, never ever, never see July."
But the snowman sniffed his carrot nose
And said, "At least I'll try,"
And he bravely smiled his frosty smile
And blinked his coal-black eye.
And there he stood and faced the sun
A blazin' from the sky-
And I really cannot tell you
If he ever saw July.
Did he ever see July? You can guess as well as I
If he ever, if he never, if he ever saw July.
Where the sidewalk ends
There is a place where the sidewalk ends
And before the street begins,
And there the grass grows soft and white,
And there the sun burns crimson bright,
And there the mood-bird rests from his flight
To cool in the peppermint wind.
Let us leave this place where the smoke blows black
And the dark street winds and bends.
Past the pits where the asphalt flowers grow
We shall walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And watch where the chalk-white arrows go
To the place where the sidewalk ends.
Yes we'll walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And we'll go where the chalk-white arrows go,
For the children, they mark, and the children, they know
The place where the sidewalk ends.
No Difference
Small as a peanut,
Big as a giant,
We're all the same size
When we turn off the light.
Rich as a sultan,
Poor as mite,
We're all worth the same
When we turn off the light.
Red, black or orange,
Yellow or white,
We all look the same
When we turn off the light
So maybe the way
To make everything right
Is for god to just reach out
And turn off the light!
Point of view
Thanksgiving dinner's sad and thankless
Christmas dinner's dark and blue
When you stop and try to see it
From the turkey's point of view.
Sunday dinner isn't sunny
Easter feasts are just bad luck
When you see it from the viewpoint
Of a chicken or a duck.
Oh how I once loved tuna salad
Pork and lobsters, lamb chops too
Till I stopped and looked at dinner
From the dinner's point of view.
I won't hatch!
Oh I am a chickie who lives in an egg,
But I will not hatch, I will not hatch.
The hens they all cackle, the roosters all beg,
But I will not hatch, I will not hatch.
For I hear all the talk of pollution and war
As the people all shout and the airplanes roar,
So I'm staying in here where it's safe and it's warm,
And I WILL NOT HATCH!
The search
I went to fine the pot of gold
That's waiting where the rainbow ends.
I searched and searched and searched and searched
And searched and searched, and then-
There it was, deep in the grass,
Under an old and twisty bough.
It's mine, it's mine, it's mine at last...
What do I search for now?
And the snowman stood alone
As the winter snows were melting,
And the pine trees seemed to groan,
"Ah, you poor sad smiling snowman,
You'll be melting by and by."
Said the snowman, "What a pity,
For I'd like to see July.
Yes, I'd like to see July, and please don't ask me why.
But I'd like to, yes I'd like to, oh I'd like to see July."
Chirped a robin, just arriving,
"Seasons come and seasons go,
And the greatest ice must crumble
When it's flowers' time to grow.
And as one thing is beginning
So another thing must die,
And there's never been a snowman
Who has ever seen July.
No, they never see July, no matter how they try.
No, they never ever, never ever, never see July."
But the snowman sniffed his carrot nose
And said, "At least I'll try,"
And he bravely smiled his frosty smile
And blinked his coal-black eye.
And there he stood and faced the sun
A blazin' from the sky-
And I really cannot tell you
If he ever saw July.
Did he ever see July? You can guess as well as I
If he ever, if he never, if he ever saw July.
Where the sidewalk ends
There is a place where the sidewalk ends
And before the street begins,
And there the grass grows soft and white,
And there the sun burns crimson bright,
And there the mood-bird rests from his flight
To cool in the peppermint wind.
Let us leave this place where the smoke blows black
And the dark street winds and bends.
Past the pits where the asphalt flowers grow
We shall walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And watch where the chalk-white arrows go
To the place where the sidewalk ends.
Yes we'll walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And we'll go where the chalk-white arrows go,
For the children, they mark, and the children, they know
The place where the sidewalk ends.
No Difference
Small as a peanut,
Big as a giant,
We're all the same size
When we turn off the light.
Rich as a sultan,
Poor as mite,
We're all worth the same
When we turn off the light.
Red, black or orange,
Yellow or white,
We all look the same
When we turn off the light
So maybe the way
To make everything right
Is for god to just reach out
And turn off the light!
Point of view
Thanksgiving dinner's sad and thankless
Christmas dinner's dark and blue
When you stop and try to see it
From the turkey's point of view.
Sunday dinner isn't sunny
Easter feasts are just bad luck
When you see it from the viewpoint
Of a chicken or a duck.
Oh how I once loved tuna salad
Pork and lobsters, lamb chops too
Till I stopped and looked at dinner
From the dinner's point of view.
I won't hatch!
Oh I am a chickie who lives in an egg,
But I will not hatch, I will not hatch.
The hens they all cackle, the roosters all beg,
But I will not hatch, I will not hatch.
For I hear all the talk of pollution and war
As the people all shout and the airplanes roar,
So I'm staying in here where it's safe and it's warm,
And I WILL NOT HATCH!
The search
I went to fine the pot of gold
That's waiting where the rainbow ends.
I searched and searched and searched and searched
And searched and searched, and then-
There it was, deep in the grass,
Under an old and twisty bough.
It's mine, it's mine, it's mine at last...
What do I search for now?
The book is called Where the sidewalk ends and is written by Shel Silverstein.
It is quite lovely ^_^
Yayayayayay
I was meant to be at a krunk party tonight but I couldn't get a lift there. Probably a good thing considering I work at 6.30 in the morning..
Night.
It is quite lovely ^_^
Yayayayayay
I was meant to be at a krunk party tonight but I couldn't get a lift there. Probably a good thing considering I work at 6.30 in the morning..
Night.
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(no subject)
Jun. 11th, 2007 | 11:17 pm
mood: 
sick
Cough syrup is disgusting.
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(no subject)
Jun. 10th, 2007 | 12:57 am
RIboqtbnoinIUBRGion
I was offered Ice the other day
BUT I TURNED THAT SHIT DOWN MOTHER FUCKER I DON'T PLAY THAT WAY!!
Oooh am I even supposed to have drug references and rudie words in my entries? I don't know.. I've never read the termsss and conditionssss of this here joint.
Oh well I don't care I'll live I guess
BUT WHAT IF THEY DELETE MY ACCOUNT!?!?!
All my entries will be forever lost!
Oh wait I don't care.
OK
Hmmm
I feel like chocolate
FATTYYYYY
Maybe I should just have some dustttt
a bit a dustttt
INNITTTTT
L0zlZ0rz LiTlE bRiTaN hEhE iM sEw XR9zAnDo8M L9Z0LZZ!
I'm really bored
I'm not moving this weekend anymore.. We are moving next weekend.
I MIGHT BE ABLE TO DECORATE MY GARAGE!!!!
Ahhhh the ideas in my head!
Have I even talked about the moving situation yet?
I don't care I'm doing it again anyway.
We are moving, into my old house (8 houses away from my current house). I am really excited. I loved that house.
We were meant to move in this weekend but we aren't. I don't know why? We are moving next weekend instead.
They cut all the trees in the backyard down though =( SILLY HEADSSSS
Those were really nice trees.
Mum and Jim (her hunni) went furniture browsing today (and didn't bring me </3)
Apparently we are going to get a wholeeee new look for our house (we've had the same basic concept for our last 3 houses now..).
Instead of old fashion woods and ugly green lounges, we are going modern browns and low tables and stufff or something. I don't really care.
I JUST WANT TO DECORATE THE GARAGE!!
I want a rumpus room/art room/music room/STONERRRRR room (don't do drugs though no.. Just for all my stoner FRIENDS who might want to put it to use (a))
I wanna buy some nice rugs and and and some cute cushy chairs and and and a beanbag anddddd some nice easels anddd a coffee table and a tv and EVERYTHINGGGGG!!
It is going to be grand.
EXCITEDDD!
It might need some lava lamps and other novelty items also.
In other news..
Umm
Bye
Brad <3
BUT I TURNED THAT SHIT DOWN MOTHER FUCKER I DON'T PLAY THAT WAY!!
Oooh am I even supposed to have drug references and rudie words in my entries? I don't know.. I've never read the termsss and conditionssss of this here joint.
Oh well I don't care I'll live I guess
BUT WHAT IF THEY DELETE MY ACCOUNT!?!?!
All my entries will be forever lost!
Oh wait I don't care.
OK
Hmmm
I feel like chocolate
FATTYYYYY
Maybe I should just have some dustttt
a bit a dustttt
INNITTTTT
L0zlZ0rz LiTlE bRiTaN hEhE iM sEw XR9zAnDo8M L9Z0LZZ!
I'm really bored
I'm not moving this weekend anymore.. We are moving next weekend.
I MIGHT BE ABLE TO DECORATE MY GARAGE!!!!
Ahhhh the ideas in my head!
Have I even talked about the moving situation yet?
I don't care I'm doing it again anyway.
We are moving, into my old house (8 houses away from my current house). I am really excited. I loved that house.
We were meant to move in this weekend but we aren't. I don't know why? We are moving next weekend instead.
They cut all the trees in the backyard down though =( SILLY HEADSSSS
Those were really nice trees.
Mum and Jim (her hunni) went furniture browsing today (and didn't bring me </3)
Apparently we are going to get a wholeeee new look for our house (we've had the same basic concept for our last 3 houses now..).
Instead of old fashion woods and ugly green lounges, we are going modern browns and low tables and stufff or something. I don't really care.
I JUST WANT TO DECORATE THE GARAGE!!
I want a rumpus room/art room/music room/STONERRRRR room (don't do drugs though no.. Just for all my stoner FRIENDS who might want to put it to use (a))
I wanna buy some nice rugs and and and some cute cushy chairs and and and a beanbag anddddd some nice easels anddd a coffee table and a tv and EVERYTHINGGGGG!!
It is going to be grand.
EXCITEDDD!
It might need some lava lamps and other novelty items also.
In other news..
Umm
Bye
Brad <3
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FUCKMEPOOOON
Jun. 9th, 2007 | 01:38 am
mood: 
pissed off
Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
Patrick Wolf is coming to Sydney.
AND IT IS AN OVER FUCKING 18'S EVENT!
FUCK ME RIGHT IN THE RECTUM TWICE WITH A SHARP STICK!
FUCKKKKKKKK
FUCK
AHH
POO
SHIT
DICK
CUNT!
Whyyyy!?!?!
DAMN YOU AGE RESTRICTIONS!!!
OK someone give me a fake ID. I'm growing a beard.
I already have a beard, Jarrod wouldn't shut up about it. I'll just never shave again.
And I'll wear platform shoes
And I'll wear fancy clothes
And huge glasses
And a hat
And then I can see him and it can all be fine. OK good glad we got that sorted
WHO THE FUCK AM I KIDDING?!
AHHHH! I WANT TO DIEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!
EvinrewBV9O4NHY936H986N0B81MFENJBPQIOEUN
Grrr
Brad
</3
Patrick Wolf is coming to Sydney.
AND IT IS AN OVER FUCKING 18'S EVENT!
FUCK ME RIGHT IN THE RECTUM TWICE WITH A SHARP STICK!
FUCKKKKKKKK
FUCK
AHH
POO
SHIT
DICK
CUNT!
Whyyyy!?!?!
DAMN YOU AGE RESTRICTIONS!!!
OK someone give me a fake ID. I'm growing a beard.
I already have a beard, Jarrod wouldn't shut up about it. I'll just never shave again.
And I'll wear platform shoes
And I'll wear fancy clothes
And huge glasses
And a hat
And then I can see him and it can all be fine. OK good glad we got that sorted
WHO THE FUCK AM I KIDDING?!
AHHHH! I WANT TO DIEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!
EvinrewBV9O4NHY936H986N0B81MFENJBPQIOEUN
Grrr
Brad
</3
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Rawrrr
Jun. 7th, 2007 | 09:07 pm
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AN DEEEEN I DWEAMZ ABOOT DA DRK KLOUDZ CUMEN OVA HED EN DEM DA ~~STORMZ~~!!1!! STRIKEN MA BLAK HART AN MAKEN ALL DA BATZ CUM OOT
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ND AFTA ALL DAT PAIN ND SORROW I KELL MYSLF, I JUST CNT BEER 2MORROW!
EN DEN MA XxX_SAWL_XxX HORNTS SAT4N @ HIS THRONE INN HELLS EN DEN EYE DEVOUR HIZ SAWWWLL 2!
ND I RUEL HEL 4EVA ND ALL DA DARK DEMONZ R IN MA ARMY 2 KEEL YEW 4 NUT UNDRSTANDIN MI WEN I WAS TEH LIVE
Transpoonshion:
I cut my neck every night to feel them drops of pain
I think about dead babies and zombies eating my brain
When I'm asleep I dream about my blood and I think about the darkness and the Satan and he gives me oral with his sharp pain teeth and he slaughters a goat on my tits
And then I dream about the dark clouds coming over head and then the storms strike my black heart and make all the bats come out
When the dark cliffs of edgydark come to my window I cry into my pillow and scream out all the pain and I slit my wrists to silence the world and I do it again and again and again
Then I go to the cupboard of all my black magicks and perform a spell on my black kitty named Ravenclaw and then I cut her open and eat her flesh and then I pour my wrists blood all over her
And after all that pain and sorrow, I kill myself, I just can't bear tomorrow
And then my soul haunts Satan at his throne in hell and then I devour his soul too
And I rule hell forever and all the dark demons are in my army to kill you for not understanding me when I was alive
I FINK ABOOT DEAD BABEEZ AND ZOMBEEZ EATEN MA BRAAAIN
WEN I EM ASLEP I DREM BOUT MA BLOOD ND I FINK BOUT TEH DARKNZ ND TEH SATAN ND HE GIVES MI ORAL WIT HIS SHARP PAIN TEEF ND HE SLAUGHTRZ A GOAT ON MA TITZ
AN DEEEEN I DWEAMZ ABOOT DA DRK KLOUDZ CUMEN OVA HED EN DEM DA ~~STORMZ~~!!1!! STRIKEN MA BLAK HART AN MAKEN ALL DA BATZ CUM OOT
WEN DEH DARK CLIFFS OF EDGEYDARK CUM 2 MA WINDO I CRY IN2 MA PILLOW ND SCREM OOT ALL DA PAIN ND I SLIT MA RISTS TO SILENSE DA WRLD ND I DO IT AGEN AND AGEN AND AGEN
ANN DEN EYE GO 2 DA CUBBOARD AWF ALL MA BLAK MAGIX AN PFORM A SPEL AWN MA BLAX KITTY NAMED RAVENCLAW AN DEN I KUT HER OPUN EN EET ER FLESH EN DEN I POAR MA WRISTZ BLUD ALL OFA HURR
ND AFTA ALL DAT PAIN ND SORROW I KELL MYSLF, I JUST CNT BEER 2MORROW!
EN DEN MA XxX_SAWL_XxX HORNTS SAT4N @ HIS THRONE INN HELLS EN DEN EYE DEVOUR HIZ SAWWWLL 2!
ND I RUEL HEL 4EVA ND ALL DA DARK DEMONZ R IN MA ARMY 2 KEEL YEW 4 NUT UNDRSTANDIN MI WEN I WAS TEH LIVE
Transpoonshion:
I cut my neck every night to feel them drops of pain
I think about dead babies and zombies eating my brain
When I'm asleep I dream about my blood and I think about the darkness and the Satan and he gives me oral with his sharp pain teeth and he slaughters a goat on my tits
And then I dream about the dark clouds coming over head and then the storms strike my black heart and make all the bats come out
When the dark cliffs of edgydark come to my window I cry into my pillow and scream out all the pain and I slit my wrists to silence the world and I do it again and again and again
Then I go to the cupboard of all my black magicks and perform a spell on my black kitty named Ravenclaw and then I cut her open and eat her flesh and then I pour my wrists blood all over her
And after all that pain and sorrow, I kill myself, I just can't bear tomorrow
And then my soul haunts Satan at his throne in hell and then I devour his soul too
And I rule hell forever and all the dark demons are in my army to kill you for not understanding me when I was alive
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Grr
Jun. 6th, 2007 | 11:37 pm
mood: annoyed
Aww.
My $64 pair of headphones broked!
The right one doesn't work anymore, unless it isn't extended at all. And I can't listen to music without extending the headphoney bits!! Grrrr
=(
My $64 pair of headphones broked!
The right one doesn't work anymore, unless it isn't extended at all. And I can't listen to music without extending the headphoney bits!! Grrrr
=(
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I am a dictator
Jun. 6th, 2007 | 03:38 pm
Forgotten poetry from colorful entry:
Yeah, now isn't
that a surprise?
You've finally
lost your eyes
When people say
"don't poke
your eyes out"
They aren't a compromise
Isn't it grand
that we live
in the land
with soul and
freedom all in
your hands.
Don't make my mind
up.
And don't sail to
sea.
We'll know when
we get there.
Never before
Now now the wind
just happens to be
my only true relative
We do all of the same things
Don't shake your
tail at me
Don't make a mess
Next time you
see me, you'll know
you are next.
I never thought I knew you.
I never thought we had met
Don't ever say thankyou politely
cause I DON'T THINK THAT
YOU'D BENEFIT
OH I DON'T KNOW
WHAT YOU EVEN THINK
I WILL SHOW you
yeah I do yeah I
do yeah I do.
Alot of that doesn't make TOOO much sense. Idc though w/e stfu
LATER THAT NIGHT
What the fuck is in your mind?
I was there
It was fair
Someone there
Was really square
It didn't matter
I didn't come to chatter
As I went home
I found out how to roam
With complete conviction
What the fuck is in your mind?
I was there
It was fair
Someone there
Was really square
It didn't matter
I didn't come to chatter
As I went home
I found out how to roam
With complete conviction
Don't make a fuckin rhyme about it
This is what poetry is.
This is what poetry is.
Robert Magarby,
Your eminence, for 45 years now the commonwealth has supported your attempts to redistribute land in Zimbabwe.
Your initiatives have been administered through the commonwealth heads of Government
CHOGOM
Your eminence, for 45 years now the commonwealth has supported your attempts to redistribute land in Zimbabwe.
Your initiatives have been administered through the commonwealth heads of Government
and the UN.
Through both of thesefellatio but country has been given a total $6.5billion
Through both of these
Through both of these initiatives.
- 6.5billion dollars
Ne
problem
Remains as a prominent quests in this country.
At 11hundred hours tomorrow our troops will be entering your borders.
At 11hundred hours tomorrow our troops will be entering your borders.
Dun dun dun
They will firstly take the royal headquarters, and also the parliment. Warn your people to keep their children indoors.
Ass fucking you by 13hundred hours
Yours sincerely
The republic of ville
Bradford Brownerie
Ass fucking you by 13hundred hours
Yours sincerely
The republic of ville
Bradford Brownerie
I, Bradford Brownerie have JUST said that Eminem is good.
I said that
"he has a way with words"
Signed
Witness,
I said that
"he has a way with words"
Signed
Witness,
Other than that, I'm hopefully going to see Genitals play tonight. And Marcc is also in it.
I am excited I guess.
Hmm..
OK bye.
Braad
Xx
I am excited I guess.
Hmm..
OK bye.
Braad
Xx
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Recent Diary Entries
Jun. 5th, 2007 | 08:31 pm
mood: 
tired
Fantasies may be real
and reality may be false
The ocean and the sky are just one big
beating pulse
Public humiliation is a
key to success don't
doubt its ways or one
of these days you'll be
more than sorry
When bell tolls for myself
I get the hell outta
here
Run away far from this
place I don't know
what to do
Ok, here is the thing
I'm stuck
Stuck with school, stuck with
money, stuck with life
There is not much left
I can do about it, so
I don't try and resist it
anymore
I feel it pointless
Whilst resting I discovered
true happiness within myself
The key is in gods
So we have to
MURDER
him to get it out of him.
We kill god,
We feel happy
Everybody must kill the god
within them!!!
The war has begun
Everything is beautiful
if you just give
it a chance
If we had extra options
we wouldn't still be here
We'd change everything forever
and make ourselves each other
Special
Is not a term you use lightly
I'd only
Give it to someone lovely
Like you, yeah you
too too too
OOOH OOH
I'd like that johnson
in my bosnan, yeah
you baby don't don't
know why you here
why you uppin in ma
ear
Why don't you do
something about my
dampening in my
panties boy
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh!
We don't want control
Just a healthy soul
Don't be telling us
It's not a realistic dream
No no we will
get there someday
You'll regret your dark
days uh-huh
Sparrows and hopscotch are
filled with my teardrops
Times of destruction
burst in my ear drums
Memory of the past
Seems to everlast
'
For the same reason we
don't like pigeons
We pain to tell you that
we hate reruns
.
and reality may be false
The ocean and the sky are just one big
beating pulse
Public humiliation is a
key to success don't
doubt its ways or one
of these days you'll be
more than sorry
When bell tolls for myself
I get the hell outta
here
Run away far from this
place I don't know
what to do
Ok, here is the thing
I'm stuck
Stuck with school, stuck with
money, stuck with life
There is not much left
I can do about it, so
I don't try and resist it
anymore
I feel it pointless
Whilst resting I discovered
true happiness within myself
The key is in gods
So we have to
MURDER
him to get it out of him.
We kill god,
We feel happy
Everybody must kill the god
within them!!!
The war has begun
Everything is beautiful
if you just give
it a chance
If we had extra options
we wouldn't still be here
We'd change everything forever
and make ourselves each other
Special
Is not a term you use lightly
I'd only
Give it to someone lovely
Like you, yeah you
too too too
OOOH OOH
I'd like that johnson
in my bosnan, yeah
you baby don't don't
know why you here
why you uppin in ma
ear
Why don't you do
something about my
dampening in my
panties boy
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh!
We don't want control
Just a healthy soul
Don't be telling us
It's not a realistic dream
No no we will
get there someday
You'll regret your dark
days uh-huh
Sparrows and hopscotch are
filled with my teardrops
Times of destruction
burst in my ear drums
Memory of the past
Seems to everlast
'
For the same reason we
don't like pigeons
We pain to tell you that
we hate reruns
.
Heh
I wrote some diary entries. Jealous? I would be.
Those are them (in the coulor)
Yeah.. About that.
I think some of it has a subtle poetic feel..
Or maybe it is just all plain retarded..
W/e
Eff yew
Brad
Xx
I wrote some diary entries. Jealous? I would be.
Those are them (in the coulor)
Yeah.. About that.
I think some of it has a subtle poetic feel..
Or maybe it is just all plain retarded..
W/e
Eff yew
Brad
Xx
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Hi
Jun. 5th, 2007 | 12:45 am
Went and saw The History Boys on Sunday, with people from Bit Bent.
It was really good.
Greaaat movie and the company was quite lovely, and it was in Manuka *salivates*
Manuka is so beautiful <3 And it still had a touch of Autumn left! It was magical.
I forgot I loved Rufus Wainwright. He can't really write lyrics for shit.. But damn does he have one amazing voice and he is extremely musically talented.
Marilyn Manson just released an album. I'm listening to it on his myspace right now. It's quite ok. No Mechanical Animals, but still pretty good. Better than TGAOG so far.
Except most of the riffs seems really familiar.. Maybe he ripped off everyone? Who knows. I cbf looking into it right now someone else can.
Sorry about the other journal.. As you may have guessed, I was slightly under the influence of illicit plants. Woops..
I like playing Clarinet. It's fun, and it sounds pretty. Clarinet has quite a nice sound.
I'm moving realllly soon. Like, maybe this weekend soon.
To my old house.. I love that house. It was so nice.
I can't wait.
I'll turn the garage into an art/music/rumpus/smoking room =D
That will be fun.
I might buy a cheap second hand drumkit or something.. I wouldn't mind going crazy on drums in that garage, it has nice acoustics.
I'm getting a new amp soon I think also. The guy who plays guitar in my mothers band is lending me one or something I don't know.
I need a new amp.. Mine is so small and boring and quiet.
Hm.. What else is news.
Oh, I stole my mothers jacket. It's so nice.
Not everyone thinks so but I don't care, it's comfortable/warm/I find it stylish.
Yeah..
Hmmmmm
I have weird outbursts of sadness all the time..
Like
If I finish reading a book, I breakdown and get sad because I miss the book and the fantasy of it and I wish I could read more and I want more and yeah.
Like I get so involved in things, when they are over I feel a horrible feeling of emptyness.
It happens with movies, books, tv shows, music.. Lots of things.
It's odd.
I like Harry Potter a lot. I'm not ashamed.
It's a wonderful fantasy. I wish I was there <3
Yeah.
I wonder what I will do when I fail school and can't get into college and can't get a proper full time job.. Hmm
I'm pretty fucked.
Maybe I should start trying harder?
OR
Maybe I should start trying less =D
Hmm, should I be worried if I'm hullucinating while high off canabis? I don't think it is normal..
I do this thing, where I feel like my soul is falling out of my body. I used to do it a lot, but I usually just jolted out of and that was it. But now, I kind of resist it.. and let myself fall.
And I do this thing..
Where like, after falling, I start flying, on a cloud. And I fly around on the cloud revisiting my childhood memories from a cloud. It's cool, but worrying.
Maybe I should lay off the drugs?
And start attending school...
Hmm.
Yeah I'm really fucked..
Oh well. Maybe Afroqueer will land a record deal and I'll become mildly successful and don't have to worry about school and such. Who knows.
Night
Xx
It was really good.
Greaaat movie and the company was quite lovely, and it was in Manuka *salivates*
Manuka is so beautiful <3 And it still had a touch of Autumn left! It was magical.
I forgot I loved Rufus Wainwright. He can't really write lyrics for shit.. But damn does he have one amazing voice and he is extremely musically talented.
Marilyn Manson just released an album. I'm listening to it on his myspace right now. It's quite ok. No Mechanical Animals, but still pretty good. Better than TGAOG so far.
Except most of the riffs seems really familiar.. Maybe he ripped off everyone? Who knows. I cbf looking into it right now someone else can.
Sorry about the other journal.. As you may have guessed, I was slightly under the influence of illicit plants. Woops..
I like playing Clarinet. It's fun, and it sounds pretty. Clarinet has quite a nice sound.
I'm moving realllly soon. Like, maybe this weekend soon.
To my old house.. I love that house. It was so nice.
I can't wait.
I'll turn the garage into an art/music/rumpus/smoking room =D
That will be fun.
I might buy a cheap second hand drumkit or something.. I wouldn't mind going crazy on drums in that garage, it has nice acoustics.
I'm getting a new amp soon I think also. The guy who plays guitar in my mothers band is lending me one or something I don't know.
I need a new amp.. Mine is so small and boring and quiet.
Hm.. What else is news.
Oh, I stole my mothers jacket. It's so nice.
Not everyone thinks so but I don't care, it's comfortable/warm/I find it stylish.
Yeah..
Hmmmmm
I have weird outbursts of sadness all the time..
Like
If I finish reading a book, I breakdown and get sad because I miss the book and the fantasy of it and I wish I could read more and I want more and yeah.
Like I get so involved in things, when they are over I feel a horrible feeling of emptyness.
It happens with movies, books, tv shows, music.. Lots of things.
It's odd.
I like Harry Potter a lot. I'm not ashamed.
It's a wonderful fantasy. I wish I was there <3
Yeah.
I wonder what I will do when I fail school and can't get into college and can't get a proper full time job.. Hmm
I'm pretty fucked.
Maybe I should start trying harder?
OR
Maybe I should start trying less =D
Hmm, should I be worried if I'm hullucinating while high off canabis? I don't think it is normal..
I do this thing, where I feel like my soul is falling out of my body. I used to do it a lot, but I usually just jolted out of and that was it. But now, I kind of resist it.. and let myself fall.
And I do this thing..
Where like, after falling, I start flying, on a cloud. And I fly around on the cloud revisiting my childhood memories from a cloud. It's cool, but worrying.
Maybe I should lay off the drugs?
And start attending school...
Hmm.
Yeah I'm really fucked..
Oh well. Maybe Afroqueer will land a record deal and I'll become mildly successful and don't have to worry about school and such. Who knows.
Night
Xx
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Ok
Jun. 2nd, 2007 | 08:44 pm
mood: 
high
music: Tori Amos
Where to startt? I do not know. Where will I end up? NOBODY KNOWS.
So
How was your day?
Mine was OK.
I chilled
If I was born of cesarean section I would murder you, yeah I would murder you.
Hmm.
My soul is nicer than your soul.
And my dreams are cooler than you.
My heart will always be winning,
When a bird flies to you.
Relax don't hide don't ever say you don't think you know because you only need to think to know don't be lazy.
OK?
Don't fool around with the only exit
It might close and you'll be stricken of your freedom
That's not a perfect dream now is it?
Running away will only help if you run in the wrong direction.
If I was to guide you, you would never learn.
The world would never be home to you if you don't what you've learned and what you earned and how you turned to say OK
I don't know exactly what I'm saying but I am aware of my undertones and I do realize now would be a good time to be the bigger person in this situation.
I don't know what the hell I'm saying...
Hmm
Maybe I shouldn't post this it doesn't make sense.
Fuckarz ima post dis shet no matta wut uze say 2 me abuut et ok u fux?
Brad <3
So
How was your day?
Mine was OK.
I chilled
If I was born of cesarean section I would murder you, yeah I would murder you.
Hmm.
My soul is nicer than your soul.
And my dreams are cooler than you.
My heart will always be winning,
When a bird flies to you.
Relax don't hide don't ever say you don't think you know because you only need to think to know don't be lazy.
OK?
Don't fool around with the only exit
It might close and you'll be stricken of your freedom
That's not a perfect dream now is it?
Running away will only help if you run in the wrong direction.
If I was to guide you, you would never learn.
The world would never be home to you if you don't what you've learned and what you earned and how you turned to say OK
I don't know exactly what I'm saying but I am aware of my undertones and I do realize now would be a good time to be the bigger person in this situation.
I don't know what the hell I'm saying...
Hmm
Maybe I shouldn't post this it doesn't make sense.
Fuckarz ima post dis shet no matta wut uze say 2 me abuut et ok u fux?
Brad <3
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Subjects are for losers
Jun. 2nd, 2007 | 12:32 am
mood: drained
music: Patrick Wolf
Ugh I'm feeling really down right now.
I don't even really know why =\
I was in a crazy good mood today, acting very happy and eccentric and fun and flamboyant and jumpy and yeah. Then out of no-where I felt a horrible feeling of downyness and since then it's gotten slowly worse and now I am sad =((
Not like horribly sad, just a lot sadder than my usual rare sadness I guess.
I guess I do have a reason why I should feel sad.. But I don't THINK that is the reason.
Just some stuff happened with some guy and I was all happy and then I found out something kind of sucky for me happened involving this guy and some other guy and yeah. You get the point.
Like, it wasn't unexpected, it wasn't a shock, it didn't make a difference anyway, and I didn't feel sad at the time of finding out.. And I don't think that is why I am sad, but it may be the reason? Who knows. Maybe I had a delayed reaction and since it was so delayed I didn't realize that was the cause?
I don't know
Whatever
I'll get over it eventually.
Patrick Wolf is helping
I got The Magic Position
*salivates wildly*
It is very very very good. He is so talented and amazing and fun fun fun and peace peace peace and ahhhh goddamn he is wonderful.
I also got a PJ Harvey cd (Is This Desire - Very good. Peaceful and quiet and electronic)
And a Telepopmusik album. I don't remember what it's called. It's good though, peaceful and good to fall asleep to.
Hmm now I think about things, I think I might be falling for some guy (differen't that the one I had a crush on. I know it didn't last long w/e, he is still cute but not for me I don't think.).
I have fallen for the same guy before.. And he might not be the best guy to fall for.. He is so unavailable yet so in my reach.
It's frustrating really.
I can't help but to be head over heels for him, and he can't help but to lead me on like a dogggg on a leash and yeah. Gr.
=(
Maybe that is contributing to my sadness as well?
Who knows.
I would really like to be in a relationship right about now.
I am so over the whole having sex for the sake of having sex thing.
I'm no slut
I have weird personality changes:
Sometimes I am the faggy flamboyant queen who pumps glamorous electro music into my face while talking slutilly about all the hawt guys I long to sleep with.
Sometimes I am the bohemian indie fag boy in stylish coats and scarfs listening to quiet peaceful bohemian modern-classical music on a bus staring at the sky, longing to be free and flying amongst the birds.
It's odd how I switch between the two extremes so quickly...
Hmm
I am currently in a really poetic mood.
I'm also too lazy to act upon this.
This will do for now,
If I am feeling more down and dark maybe I'll have a poetic outburst and journal it all. I doubt that though.. Whatever.
Night
X
Brad
I don't even really know why =\
I was in a crazy good mood today, acting very happy and eccentric and fun and flamboyant and jumpy and yeah. Then out of no-where I felt a horrible feeling of downyness and since then it's gotten slowly worse and now I am sad =((
Not like horribly sad, just a lot sadder than my usual rare sadness I guess.
I guess I do have a reason why I should feel sad.. But I don't THINK that is the reason.
Just some stuff happened with some guy and I was all happy and then I found out something kind of sucky for me happened involving this guy and some other guy and yeah. You get the point.
Like, it wasn't unexpected, it wasn't a shock, it didn't make a difference anyway, and I didn't feel sad at the time of finding out.. And I don't think that is why I am sad, but it may be the reason? Who knows. Maybe I had a delayed reaction and since it was so delayed I didn't realize that was the cause?
I don't know
Whatever
I'll get over it eventually.
Patrick Wolf is helping
I got The Magic Position
*salivates wildly*
It is very very very good. He is so talented and amazing and fun fun fun and peace peace peace and ahhhh goddamn he is wonderful.
I also got a PJ Harvey cd (Is This Desire - Very good. Peaceful and quiet and electronic)
And a Telepopmusik album. I don't remember what it's called. It's good though, peaceful and good to fall asleep to.
Hmm now I think about things, I think I might be falling for some guy (differen't that the one I had a crush on. I know it didn't last long w/e, he is still cute but not for me I don't think.).
I have fallen for the same guy before.. And he might not be the best guy to fall for.. He is so unavailable yet so in my reach.
It's frustrating really.
I can't help but to be head over heels for him, and he can't help but to lead me on like a dogggg on a leash and yeah. Gr.
=(
Maybe that is contributing to my sadness as well?
Who knows.
I would really like to be in a relationship right about now.
I am so over the whole having sex for the sake of having sex thing.
I'm no slut
I have weird personality changes:
Sometimes I am the faggy flamboyant queen who pumps glamorous electro music into my face while talking slutilly about all the hawt guys I long to sleep with.
Sometimes I am the bohemian indie fag boy in stylish coats and scarfs listening to quiet peaceful bohemian modern-classical music on a bus staring at the sky, longing to be free and flying amongst the birds.
It's odd how I switch between the two extremes so quickly...
Hmm
I am currently in a really poetic mood.
I'm also too lazy to act upon this.
This will do for now,
If I am feeling more down and dark maybe I'll have a poetic outburst and journal it all. I doubt that though.. Whatever.
Night
X
Brad
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May. 27th, 2007 | 12:55 am
Work was busy. Grr
I had plenty to look at though, I was happy.
It is really cold at the moment.
On the bus to woden , I can see what looks like a beautiful, wonderful, magical pathway in some field in lyons or something. I can't tell though, I only get a glimpse. I want to travel it, but I fear it may be just some ugly gross path in ugly gross fields. I don't want to ruin it.. But I do want to discover it if it is beautiful and magical. DILEMA
I miss the hat I bought and lost. I'll buy another one I guess.
OK time to go dream of beautiful magical wonderful things now. Night
I had plenty to look at though, I was happy.
It is really cold at the moment.
On the bus to woden , I can see what looks like a beautiful, wonderful, magical pathway in some field in lyons or something. I can't tell though, I only get a glimpse. I want to travel it, but I fear it may be just some ugly gross path in ugly gross fields. I don't want to ruin it.. But I do want to discover it if it is beautiful and magical. DILEMA
I miss the hat I bought and lost. I'll buy another one I guess.
OK time to go dream of beautiful magical wonderful things now. Night
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About that
May. 26th, 2007 | 12:22 pm
Working tonight, out back ^_^ I haven't had a shift in the kitchen in a while.
Not that I don't like front counter, it can just get quite draining.
I am yet to stop listening to inspiring false hopey music. I'm listening to it right now actually. Wooh.
I really truly 100% love Patrick Wolf and everything about him. Every tiny detail.
His mind
His soul
His lyrics
His music
His talent
His voice
His accent
His appearance
His clothing
His face *drools*
And just about everything that has ever come out of his mouth
It's true. I lurve him.
He is inspiring in many many ways. He is the most amazing person I know of.
<3
I'm done now.
Brad
Not that I don't like front counter, it can just get quite draining.
I am yet to stop listening to inspiring false hopey music. I'm listening to it right now actually. Wooh.
I really truly 100% love Patrick Wolf and everything about him. Every tiny detail.
His mind
His soul
His lyrics
His music
His talent
His voice
His accent
His appearance
His clothing
His face *drools*
And just about everything that has ever come out of his mouth
It's true. I lurve him.
He is inspiring in many many ways. He is the most amazing person I know of.
<3
I'm done now.
Brad
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Oh my
May. 26th, 2007 | 01:25 am
mood: frustrated
I just found out something I really didn't want to know. Certain people know certain other people that don't like certain other other people.
Great
It isn't fair really. I don't have a problem with it, but as soon as anything is mentioned I have a bad feeling I am going to be outlawed sort of.. It would be immature of said persons, but you know maturity levels and open mindednesserzeriz in people these days.
Oh well
Life goes on
I don't care
I will just keep it to myself, not confront anyone and not bitch about it. So this can end here I guess.
Work was mostly horrible tonight. People being rude, me getting embarrassed and such. The usual. =\
Ugh I was in a really good mood a little while ago. Why did things have to happen?
Grr stop thinking of it.
OK
Done
Out of my head
Even though it isn't but oh well I can still claim it's gone.
I have giant feeling of guilt in my chest now. Excellent.
Hmm, what do I do if I fail year 10? I already got 4 E's last year, and I'm looking at about 4 more just this semester if I don't start attending school and doing assignments and the like..
Fuck I hate school. I feel really trapped in it.
I know I can't leave, because that really screws my future up horribly.. But the shit they try to teach me -_-
I really do not feel like I need any of that crap.
But I do, because I am automatically unemployed and poor if I don't finish school..
But gah. I want a carefree, peaceful, bohemian, hippie type life.
Living out in the country in a small house, growing vegetables and fruits for food, no electricity, focusing on art/music/writing, etc. It sounds so beautiful <3 But most likely very unrealistic.
Grr
Life is complicated. I don't mean that in an emotional "I want to die plz I hate my life it's so horrible no one loves me why can't I just die right now?"
I mean it in a confused "Why am I here? What is my purpose? What should I do with myself? I don't understand =(" kind of way.
Grr
Maybe I should stop listening to music. It seems to be tainting my mind with false hopes of artistic dreams and such.
DAMN YOU PATRICK WOLF!
Why must you have such a wonderful mind and soul?
Aww man now I am frustrated. All this talk of my confusion has made me think about it even more and make me even more confused. Bleh
OK I won't bitch about my state of my mind anymore it makes it worse.
I will bitch about people =)
What the hell is with manly men eating a gigantic meals? How does that make them more manly? It makes them more fat..
EG: Every football playing, pub going, porn watching man that comes in to purchase food from me buys: Large double quarter pounder meals (biggest burger on the menu) with XL coke, extra fries, and an extra triple cheeseburger meal. Or something similar
Even when they are just buying drinks, they insist "Get me the biggest cup you've got. The bigger the better. And I'll have two".. I really do no understand it at all.
These kind of people are strange..
Lot's of people are strange. I really do not understand most general human nature. AHHHHH.
OK people bitching isn't working, I am looping back to my dreamy state of mind. Gah
Maybe I should just stop altogether
That might work
I'll give that a try.
OK
Done
Screw editing this journal it's huge edit it yourself. I probably screwed my words up and such all over the place. Oh well.
NIGHT
Great
It isn't fair really. I don't have a problem with it, but as soon as anything is mentioned I have a bad feeling I am going to be outlawed sort of.. It would be immature of said persons, but you know maturity levels and open mindednesserzeriz in people these days.
Oh well
Life goes on
I don't care
I will just keep it to myself, not confront anyone and not bitch about it. So this can end here I guess.
Work was mostly horrible tonight. People being rude, me getting embarrassed and such. The usual. =\
Ugh I was in a really good mood a little while ago. Why did things have to happen?
Grr stop thinking of it.
OK
Done
Out of my head
Even though it isn't but oh well I can still claim it's gone.
I have giant feeling of guilt in my chest now. Excellent.
Hmm, what do I do if I fail year 10? I already got 4 E's last year, and I'm looking at about 4 more just this semester if I don't start attending school and doing assignments and the like..
Fuck I hate school. I feel really trapped in it.
I know I can't leave, because that really screws my future up horribly.. But the shit they try to teach me -_-
I really do not feel like I need any of that crap.
But I do, because I am automatically unemployed and poor if I don't finish school..
But gah. I want a carefree, peaceful, bohemian, hippie type life.
Living out in the country in a small house, growing vegetables and fruits for food, no electricity, focusing on art/music/writing, etc. It sounds so beautiful <3 But most likely very unrealistic.
Grr
Life is complicated. I don't mean that in an emotional "I want to die plz I hate my life it's so horrible no one loves me why can't I just die right now?"
I mean it in a confused "Why am I here? What is my purpose? What should I do with myself? I don't understand =(" kind of way.
Grr
Maybe I should stop listening to music. It seems to be tainting my mind with false hopes of artistic dreams and such.
DAMN YOU PATRICK WOLF!
Why must you have such a wonderful mind and soul?
Aww man now I am frustrated. All this talk of my confusion has made me think about it even more and make me even more confused. Bleh
OK I won't bitch about my state of my mind anymore it makes it worse.
I will bitch about people =)
What the hell is with manly men eating a gigantic meals? How does that make them more manly? It makes them more fat..
EG: Every football playing, pub going, porn watching man that comes in to purchase food from me buys: Large double quarter pounder meals (biggest burger on the menu) with XL coke, extra fries, and an extra triple cheeseburger meal. Or something similar
Even when they are just buying drinks, they insist "Get me the biggest cup you've got. The bigger the better. And I'll have two".. I really do no understand it at all.
These kind of people are strange..
Lot's of people are strange. I really do not understand most general human nature. AHHHHH.
OK people bitching isn't working, I am looping back to my dreamy state of mind. Gah
Maybe I should just stop altogether
That might work
I'll give that a try.
OK
Done
Screw editing this journal it's huge edit it yourself. I probably screwed my words up and such all over the place. Oh well.
NIGHT
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*Insert deep lyrics quote here*
May. 24th, 2007 | 11:27 pm
mood: relaxed
I am very happy right now
I won't go into detail too much though. Don't want to say anything that can be translated into me stalking someone.
We all now how that goes downn
OK I'm over that already, stop living in the past Brad BAD!
Anyway, Bit Bent thing tonight. (=queer youth group)
Left early withhh Andrew, Kelly, Sarah and Gennn (who I dragged along this time)
We sat on some grass next to a carpark. It was quite lovely actually. Then we walked around philip and bummed around dark alleys because we are so teh g4wefx and such.
It was wonderful.
I think I also have a love interest as of now. <3
You could even say I have a crush *giggles*
That isn't important though. I won't get into it.
Hmm
When you have a new crush it is hard to think about anything else...
.
Carrie made me a band bio for Afroqueer. It is very nice. I love her muchly for it <3 tis on Afroqueer's myspace here
OK, nothing else to talk about that isn't him so I'll just stop now before I give into urges and blurt out a whole journal about him.
NIGHTTT
I won't go into detail too much though. Don't want to say anything that can be translated into me stalking someone.
We all now how that goes downn
OK I'm over that already, stop living in the past Brad BAD!
Anyway, Bit Bent thing tonight. (=queer youth group)
Left early withhh Andrew, Kelly, Sarah and Gennn (who I dragged along this time)
We sat on some grass next to a carpark. It was quite lovely actually. Then we walked around philip and bummed around dark alleys because we are so teh g4wefx and such.
It was wonderful.
I think I also have a love interest as of now. <3
You could even say I have a crush *giggles*
That isn't important though. I won't get into it.
Hmm
When you have a new crush it is hard to think about anything else...
.
Carrie made me a band bio for Afroqueer. It is very nice. I love her muchly for it <3 tis on Afroqueer's myspace here
OK, nothing else to talk about that isn't him so I'll just stop now before I give into urges and blurt out a whole journal about him.
NIGHTTT
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No, Harry Potter is a wizard
May. 23rd, 2007 | 06:11 pm
Drake and Josh is kind of sucky, but I found that funny.
Well it took me over half an hour,
But I picked out an outfit to wear tomorrow.
I am never this fussy and superficial.. I just grab the closest clean thing I see. Cold weather just brings out the fashionable-art-queer I truly am I guess?
I'm wearing:
Plain Black pants
A long-sleeve button-up White t-shirt with Brown stripes
An uber tight Grey sweater
A White jacket with fur (fake) on the end of the sleeves, the bottom and the hood
A Brown checkeredish scarf
Shoes undecided
Most likely just my purple tiger converses
I've almost finished reading Running With Scissors.
It is a really good book. I almost cried in horticulture today when Neil ran away =(
I get to go to Bit Bent again tomorrow =D I'm really quite excited. I am bringing Gen with me.
I feel it will be fun fun fun!
According to most people that have listened to the new Afroqueer song, I am really good at guitar but need to work on my vocals.
I can deal with that. I don't think I can sing at all. I just kind of moan the lyrics out.
I can't wait to get new, decent equipment and programs so I can record like a crazy beeatch on speed =DD
Hmm
Hmm
Ok
Bai
Well it took me over half an hour,
But I picked out an outfit to wear tomorrow.
I am never this fussy and superficial.. I just grab the closest clean thing I see. Cold weather just brings out the fashionable-art-queer I truly am I guess?
I'm wearing:
Plain Black pants
A long-sleeve button-up White t-shirt with Brown stripes
An uber tight Grey sweater
A White jacket with fur (fake) on the end of the sleeves, the bottom and the hood
A Brown checkeredish scarf
Shoes undecided
Most likely just my purple tiger converses
I've almost finished reading Running With Scissors.
It is a really good book. I almost cried in horticulture today when Neil ran away =(
I get to go to Bit Bent again tomorrow =D I'm really quite excited. I am bringing Gen with me.
I feel it will be fun fun fun!
According to most people that have listened to the new Afroqueer song, I am really good at guitar but need to work on my vocals.
I can deal with that. I don't think I can sing at all. I just kind of moan the lyrics out.
I can't wait to get new, decent equipment and programs so I can record like a crazy beeatch on speed =DD
Hmm
Hmm
Ok
Bai